Definitely not Horrorshow...

Ok, I know there has been a long absence from me, but I think my last vellocet were taking a lot out of me.

I said Med Free, Do what I please

med free to ride to breeze

med free baby I can't stay

I got to got to get away

My last meds I reached the top level and started to break out in a rash, which was what they were worried about. So I stepped down and I am completely off them. Since then I am sleeping 15 hours a day where I was barely sleeping, now I can not get enough. After two more weeks hopefully I will be completely balanced out again.

I had a zasnoot study done to check to see if I am narcoleptic. I do not know how anyone can be truly tested while being hooked up to all of the machines. With electrodes on my face, head, neck, shoulder and nogas, and tubes up my nose made it impossible to zasnoot. So I was supposed to be woken up at 6am. Instead I was awake at 5am waiting for the nurse to check on me. Then every two hours from 8-4 I was to try to take a nap. Of course I am going to be tired since I only slept 4 hours the previous night, and I normally sleep from 3am-10am because of the above meds. I went back to the doctor today (a month later) to get the results and it was not done yet. My doctor called to ask why and they said it takes 3 weeks to a month to exam (after it was a month already).

I then had a two hour, yes two straight hours inside of a MRI machine. Now I am no not by any means claustrophobic, but even I was a little unnerved when I opened my eyes seeing the machine three inches from my face. It did not help when I asked for a Punk internet radio channel they put on an emo one and one that played Oasis. Finally I just asked if I could chose one band to listen to and asked for the Murphys which gave me a good sampling of music from Flogging Molly, and the Pogues ... oh and the sharp object imbedding itself in my head for two hours did not make me feel any better. I got through it and guess what it showed? Absolutely nothing.

Today was a fun one. I felt as though the doctors were experimenting with me to reenact a Clockwork Orange. They put contact lenses in my Glazzballs, attached to electrodes. I was unable to blink and had flashing lights going off for about 20 minutes. To get to that point I had to sit in the dark for an hour, without anything to do. The contact lenses made me blub or they were adding artificial tears I do not know which. If you could not figure it out, I have fit in some of the vernacular from the Book to have some fun.

So this week is Thanksgiving. I am thankful for my Family, friends and that I still have relatively good health ( compared to other people I see at the Hospitals). I am thankful that no matter how down I get I know that it can get worse, but has not yet. I am thankful for a good beer, burger, or whatever else gets me through the day. I hope all who read this do something for someone else this year who is less fortunate than you. Give to those who need it rather than those who want it. I have learned I can live with surprisingly little (which coming from someone who is on the verge of a hoarder says a lot).

The one thing I am not thankful for is my second Spinal tap, which comes next week... That will be another week of me being laid up on my back in pain.

I will follow up with more after the Spinal tap and maybe getting some news from any of the tests.

I hope everyone has a happy, healthy and giving holiday season.

Fall Seven get up Eight

Ok, So here is what is new as of Today (I can not tell you tomorrow or I would play the lottery).

I met with a doctor at UPenn. My family Doctor wanted me to see this doctor, and when I called to make an appointment in July they quoted me February as the first appointment date. I said thank you but no. Somehow they called yesterday and asked if I wanted to come in. So I said yes.

This Neurologist seemed interested. I was there for about two hours (one with the fellow and one with her). Out of all of the Neurologists she seemed interested. She did not come up with a conclusion on one symptom, but it seemed like she wanted to figure out a mystery. The other Neurologists I have been to have threw their hands up in the air and pawned me off on someone else, after the medicine that they gave me did not work. They told me to find someone else to do it.

So good news, This doctor wanted all of my medical records no matter how small... She took my cell phone number so she could call me with any questions along the way. It was refreshing from a Neurologist. I have only found two other doctors who were interested enough to look past the obvious (which has not worked for six months). She also wants me to see a doctor friend of hers who has written papers on persistent visual disturbances to get his point of view.

So Bad news, I may have to get another spinal tap. Good news, More This is Spinal Tap references coming up. I was also asked if I would have a problem being in a MRI machine for more than 2 hours. Good thing I am not claustrophobic. I also have more blood tests... I think they should just leave one of those stints in my arm so they can take what they want to bleed me dry.

With all this doom and gloom in my writings, I have had two things make me happy this week. Sunday I went to a Buddhist Meditation with a Buddhist monk who fled Tibet with the Dalai Lama. It was a refreshing and relaxing day. Although I suck at meditating (I can not keep thoughts from jumping into my head... but I guess it needs work), it was a great experiences and I plan on going back for more. http://www.tibetanbuddhist.org/ for anyone interested.

With everything that has been happening to me lately I have been down for nearly five months. I found no way to get out of my funk. I am not out of it yet but these little experiences of happiness have helped. Going to the Buddhist Mediation session, seeing friends and going to their house for a day away from seclusion, and I had the best burger in the world.

This burger was from Village Whiskey in Philadelphia. It is one of Jose Garces Restaurants. If you do not know him he is an Iron Chef and his food is a South American Asian mix. This burger was amazing; it is the Whiskey King. 8 ounces of meat (Medium Rare of course), with Maple Bourbon Glazed Cipollini (Which are onions I just found out), Rogue Bleu Cheese, Applewood Bacon and Foie Gras... On the side was Duck Fat French Fries with a Sly Fox-Chedder Cheese sauce and a Black and white milkshake.

It also had a huge list of whiskey and a beer in a hand pump (Which I have only ever seen at Standard Tap. Now this made me want to try the Whiskeys and beer, but alas my medicine keep me from those which I love. I will go back when I am done and start at one end of the Whiskey Menu and work my way to the other (Kind of like what I do at Monks).

I will update later when I have more medical info, but I wanted to thank everyone who has given me a moment of happiness recently. You have no idea what it means to me. Although I would never hurt myself, it has given me that little bump I needed to get out of bed in the morning. So Thank you for everything...

Slainte.